What's Funny...and What's Not Funny....

I like Cookies....I like Cake....and once I know the WW point assigned too it..I make a decision about what I'm going to eat and what I'm not going to eat.....

So, here's what's not funny. No one knows what internal battles I may face picking up one cookie vs many....but when I pick up one friggin cookie, I don't want folks looking at me like I'm about to blow up 200lbs instantly from eating it.

I know some people feel that if a cookie is a trigger food, than don't even acknowledge it or eat it...But one of the reasons why I joined WW was because I wanted to learn what it actually did too me & my body other than, because it has sugar & fats, it's not good for you. Common sense eludes me when it comes to baked goods, lol, so NO, I didn't know or care that if I ate too many, it's going to stick to my thighs and sides....

Now, present day,  I do care. Now, I want to know how to include it in my life and not completely take it away. I was so upset, not too long ago, when a comment was made too me, when I grabbed a mini Kit Kat, "Alright, don't get right back to where you was." Then there was a, "I'm just kidding."

First of all, a joke (in my mind) is funny when everyone is laughing. Not just the person who makes the comical remarks. Watching Barney on How I Met Your Mother is funny. Watching my girls make fart jokes is funny (and stinky), but saying, "Don't get back to where you was." Is not funny too me.

I can't stand being watched for every move that I make, especially if I'm being watched for the sole reason for someone to find a flaw in me. I'll beat you to the punch. I have LOTS of FLAWS. I know there is a such thing as tough love, but I give myself enough of it, and the people who are supposed to be close to me should know it, but I guess they figure I need more.

So anyway, after the comment was made, all I said was, "Seriously? Yeah, that's what I'm going to do." and I just walked away. I can't imagine being watched for the rest of my life, just to see if I fail. How do you deal with that? Tell them to f** off? Or is showing them better than any word that you can say?

The trues answer will be, Forget what they say, think about how you feel, blah, blah, but my feelings get hurt too, damn.

Got my 10lb's Lost Weight Watcher's Ribbon...!

Okay so after being out of town, eating some good old cajun food, coming home, and catching a cold...The first thought that hit me when I jumped on the scale, was, "Please just don't let me have gained any weight."

Not only did I NOT gain weight while I was gone...(and had to guess estimate a lot of my points), but I dropped below 200lbs!!! I was struggling to break that 200 mark and I did! I'm 198 today and hopefully will get down to 188 in another month or so. :)

I think what's great about Weight Watchers, are the meetings, and talking to the people there. I'm putting less pressure on myself to hurry up and get the weight off, although I do want it off....I'm actually taking the time to enjoy myself! I'm learning to not dread food! It's pretty cool.

At my meeting today, our speaker talked about good comebacks for people during Thanksgiving time, when people who know you're on WW, are going to say a million things too you about your food choices. 

"Should you be eating that?" "Can I eat this in front of you?" "Oh come on, why are you on a diet during the food holidays?"

It's funny the way he answered those questions without hesitation.."Yes, Go for it, and because I want to be on one." And then he moved on. That's it. There's no long drawn out explanation of why you're doing it. You're doing it and then you move on to the next topic of conversation. How awesome is that! LOL

When I went out of town, my family did that too me, to an extent. The constant questions of, "Should you eat that?" "Should I fix you something else?" and the famous "Are you SURE you can eat that?" Then there is a smirk and an, "Okay, if you say so."

After the meeting, I happily bounced to my car, happy that I can say, "Yes, I can eat it. Yes, I am sure. And please KMA." lol  Just kidding about the Kiss my a** part, lol.

Been Busy...

but feeling really great! WW is going well. I've been losing 3lbs each week. Because I threw exercise in the routine, I did stall for a few days, but once my body realized I wasn't trying to kill it, the weight starting dropping back off again. I'm really loving it so far! Let's see how it continues to go! Thank you for all the support I've been getting.

1st Week - WW 3lbs lost

I'm SUPER EXCITED to have lost weight while on my monthly cycle! 

Not sure what's up with this losing 3lbs here & there, but I'll take it, lol. Following the points have been good for me....Anxious to see how this is going to turn out...


Currently, I'm a 28 point a day program, and some days I don't get to 28, and other days, (sometimes by miscalculation) I go over...But not over in the sense that I don't stay on the plan, because I also get an extra 35 points for the week which helps for some of those miscalculations!


It still takes control, but I'm glad some of the deprivation is cut out. I love still being able to enjoy the foods I love & go out to a restaurant with my friends & family without having to order just salad....  Although salad is still a good thing and I do eat lots of it!

I also, love, love, love walking almost every day with my good friend, Toya. It's therapeutic & reminds me about how exciting sisterhood among friends can be. 

Will update you guys again in a week!  

I'm here! I'm here! LOL

Sorry, I've been a busy bee. I didn't get a chance to complete 2 classes I had last semester, so I had to request an extension, and I'm trying to complete that homework.

Here's an important update: 

I stopped the HCG.

If anyone reading this blog still wants to try it out, by all means do it! My fellow military spouses are kicking a** on it, but I'm not successful due to not being able to abide by the strict guidelines. You do see results and fast if you stay on track! So please don't not try it because of me.

I'll still keep this blog up, because I'm still going to try and lose weight through another avenue.

I"m going to try Weight Watchers.

Also, one of my friends, is going to exercise with me, so hopefully I can get a buddy system going.

I'm kinda far away from the military spouses, and I see how well they are doing with HCG (it's awesome really!)..... I think having buddies with you and doing it together, in person, really helps out. They share recipes and cook for each other and hang out, it's sweet.

Thank you for alllll your support guys and for contacting me on Facebook! You guys rock. :D

Stalled a bit....

Still at 207lbs, but my body may be adjusting to a few mistakes I've made. I've had a very active weekend so far and ate a little bit outside my diet format. Not much, thank goodness, but I had the equivalent to an extra meal, about 400 calories and have not had a BM in 2 days, also (sorry TMI!) 

I found this resource extremely helpful and actually use it more as a guideline than the papers I received when I purchased the HCG drops. To anyone reading this blog, do your research if you feel as if you need/want more answers than what you get from this blog or your friends. 

Day 9 Dropped 3lbs .....

Hmmm....Well, I was pretty happy to see 207 on the scale this morning...a bit surprised, but happy nonetheless. Today is my last day as a tax examiner at the IRS for the tax season...They'll be calling me back at some point, so I'm enjoying the short time off until tax time rolls back around...Ya-hoo! 

There are two things I absolutely LOVE how to do....which is doing taxes and writing...hopefully I'll have some good news to share soon about a writing gig coming up, but for now...I'm focusing on losing this weight!!!

Today, my job will be having a "Goodbye & Get Out" party, so I'm going to do my best to eat before I even head in to work, so I won't be heavily tempted by all the goodies surrounding me. Pray for me, my friends, and keep positive thoughts in place for me. I'm praying positive thoughts for all of you too. 

Feeling a little bit better....

Just found out that my last day at work will be Friday! I'm excited to be back home with the kiddies & be able to solely focus on school. :D Hopefully my 'lifestyle' change will be easier too once I"m away from the enormous amounts of food that can sometimes come with being in an office environment.

I'm down half the pound that I gained & hopefully it will continue to go in that direction.

09/22/2010 211 lbs
09/23/2010 210.5 lbs

Gained a pound...

Not sure if it's because I'm sick with a head cold...My head feels like it weighs an extra pound or because I cheated at the Goodbye Party at my job last night. I had one hot dog and 4 cookies (yes, I even counted the cookies, lol). I'm not sure if that fluctuation would cause me to gain a pound, but either way, I'm adding 3 days to my diet to make up for my one bad day...

I was also walking my girls to school in the morning, but have not done it in the past two days, so even though the hubby is home, I'm going to get up and walk with them.

Okay, I'm off to lay down before work and to drink some Alka Seltzer cold.

Day 6 Dropped 3lbs...!

Here's a recap so far ...This pic was taken 9/18/2010....(I'll be adding random shots of me, to see if I can see the difference in myself.) Interestingly enough, I didn't realize how big I've gotten until I started taking more pictures.....So here we go...In this pick, there is no tucking in, my girl, Shantelle, caught me off guard...No time to suck it in!!! LOL

Thursday 9/16/2010 -   211lbs  (Yikes!)
Friday     9/17/2010 -   212lbs  (Double Yikes!)
Saturday 9/18/2010 -   213lbs  (Triple Yikes! No surprise there with the load days)
Sunday   9/19/2010 -   213lbs  (Steady as she goes)
Monday  9/20/2010 -  213lbs   (Still the same)
Tuesday 9/21/2010 -   210lbs   (Wow! Where did that come from?)

Dr. Simeons Pounds & Inches

A free ebook that talks about dieting and HCG. Check this out before you start


If the link don't work, please copy and paste this into your web browser http://hcgdietjourney.com/wp-content/uploads/Pounds&Inches.pdf

Ugh ....Hypoglycemia

Well, yesterday, it was difficult going through my low calorie day. Towards the evening, (I've been eating every couple of hours, because I know how my body can get), I was beginning to feel weak & was losing concentration with my homework. So I had two slices of pizza that my husband ordered. I tried eating salad and another piece of fruit before I tried the pizza, but it still didn't work. So now I'm packing in the proteins today in hopes that today will be better. 

Previously, when I was on a physician monitored low calorie diet, he suggested to drink something similar to Gatorade to help my electrolytes stay up (and so I won't feel so dizzy), but not Gatorade because it had high sodium. So I use to drink this beverage called zero that I got from Wal-mart. I'll have to get some more. 

When my body goes over 200lbs, it starts to do this to me, so I definitely need to get below the 200 mark in order to complete this. I'm trying not to beat myself up and just continue to move forward from here. Everyday you can start anew! 

HCG Friendly Recipes....Healthy Food Can Be Good!

HCG Cookbook. I got this from another fellow HCG dieter. This is going to be an interesting ride indeed!

Where to buy HCG

This is the website where my HCG came from. Also, I copied and pasted a note of what to do during this diet and what I'm doing.

Check out a fellow military spouse's website BUY HCG HERE. Tell Nicole, Clarice sent you! And if the link does not direct you properly, copy and paste this web address http://buyhcgnow.webs.com/


Plan of a Normal Course
22 Drops of HCG placed under your tongue for 5 minutes. Do not eat or drink anything for 20 minutes before or after you take the drops.

You have 2 days of loading up on whatever food it is  you like to eat.

**That is to say, the 1st 2 days of taking hCG, you gorge on fatty foods, to make sure your normal fat cells are filled to capacity**

After 3rd day, 500 calorie diet to be continued until 72 hours after the last dose
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For the following 3 weeks, all foods allowed except starch and sugar in any form (careful with very sweet fruit).
After 3 weeks, very gradually add starch in small quantities, always controlled by morning weighing.
The Diet
The 500 calorie diet is explained on the day of the second injection to those patients who will be preparing their own food, and it is most important that the person who will actually cook is present - the wife, the mother or the cook, as the case may be. Here in Italy patients are given the following diet sheet.
Breakfast:

Tea or coffee in any quantity without sugar. Only one tablespoonful of milk allowed in 24 hours. Saccharin or stevia may be used.
Lunch:

100 grams of veal, beef, chicken breast, fresh white fish, lobster, crab, or shrimp. All visible fat must be carefully removed before cooking, and the meat must be weighed raw. It must be boiled or grilled without additional fat. Salmon, eel, tuna, herring, dried or pickled fish are not allowed.
One type of vegetable only to be chosen from the following: spinach, chard, chicory, beet-greens, green salad, tomatoes, celery, fennel, onions, red radishes, cucumbers, asparagus, cabbage.
One breadstick (grissino) or one Melba toast.
An apple or a handful of strawberries or one-half grapefruit.
Dinner: The same four choices as lunch.

HCG Day 4

Welll...So far so good...I've been on a low calorie diet before & I think what I've learned as I start this journey again, is that I over ate due to the need of instant gratification. As I go back to looking at calories and what I put into my body, I shake my head often at how much I truly do over eat.

I thought over eating meant, stuffing plate fulls of food down your face, but that's not always the case....It's more like, I eat more than the recommended serving of a good treat. If I know ONE cookie is only 250 calories (Ms. Fields, yeah I'm calling you out), eating 4 is bad for ME if my body does not burn 1000 calories worth of cookies. Even if it's only 4 and then continue to eat the other things in a day.

It's not like I'm having a big revelation about calories. I knew this stuff when I tried to let go of over eating before, but I think the difference now is, that other than being labeled clinically obese, I'm a pretty healthy person...and I want to enjoy life. Regardless of my mood or moment, I don't want to get lost in that one moment. So I'm going to think more....and eat less.....Weight loss is always so difficult, but here I go! 

HCG Day 1

Yesterday was my load day and it was a great day. The hubby & I went to Red Lobster and even though I wanted to load up, I actually couldn't after I had the appetizer and cheddar biscuits...I fail! lol

But yesterday was an eye opener indeed. My weight is steady going up & I want to do what I can to bring it back down. I'm trying this because I've seen success with other military spouses. I've done a low cal diet before, but it was a continuous diet with no breaks in between unlike with this diet, so I'm doing Phase I for 3 weeks, and I'm anxious for the results. 

I'm also walking the girls to school to get my 20 minutes of exercise in and will increase it as I go through my diet phases.I've been taking pics with my hubby and I've noticed how his weight as decreased and mine has increased! So, here's is too starting anew and to hoping that as my 32nd birthday approaches, 32lbs will have moved on as well.

09/16/2010 - 211 lbs

Rainy Day....

Made the decision to try out another 'change in life' where I will try and lose all the weight I've accumulated thus far. I'll update the blog with pictures and quick notes as I share my experience.

Have a blessed day. :D